forgiveness

"letters to angel"
Hi! good evening angel. I don't why I keep on writing these letters. I'm not even sure if mababasa mo to.
I would like to ask forgiveness to what I've said. But is it the right thing to do? Have I done something wrong? I know na wala akong masamang intention sa iyo. All of what I've said are sincere and true. They are my thoughts. And naisip ko lang na sana hindi ko sinabi pa. Just to save the friendship. Para di ka na lumayo pa. Para malaman ko na nandyan ka lang. there are things that are better kept forever. Cguro you would say na parang dishonesty naman yun or parang may hidden desire ako sa iyo. I can trade all of what I dream just to take hold on the friendship. alam ko naman na very slim ang chance na magustohan mo ako. kung bumaliktad lang ang mundo di ba.
Well I tried for several days not to think of you. I tried my tested ways of forgetting. My pros and cons reasoning, my meditation, I tried to think of you as someone with a very bad personality, very erratic mood, pero I don't know....when the morning comes, I would still consider you as my sunshine, somebody who makes my day right. someone who could listen to all my joys, my problems and my immaturities. at night before sleeping I would still think of your condition, you still make me want to care, I would still consider you as a friend and still I would still offer prayers.
I don't know if things will be better for us. I believe naman na if you really appreciate my presence, you wouldn't ignore me ng matagal. Isa lang masasabi ko, all the help that I gave you were not given because I'm courting you or because nagpapa pogi points ako. It's my nature to help the one's I love, the ones I care about, people who are important to my life at isa ka dun. Pero isa lang masasabi ko sa iyo, try to be compassionate sometimes. ;)
good night and ingat always.