the last of me

"letters to angel"
can't handle it....no one to talk to.....3 project loss....I'm back to nothing....i guess.

bothered

"letters to angel"
It been a while angel. thanks nga pala for the talk. I've realized my wrong deeds na. :)
Well I'm glad to hear na medyo happy ka today. I can hear it naman sa voice mo na medyo di mo na pinapansin ang mga problems because of someone. hehe! Pero I'm a little bothered when you said na sa palagay mo he's not the right guy you're talking about. And parang he's there for the moment.....Well I've proven na medyo alam mo na nga ang talagang gusto mo sa buhay. Pero as I've said please secure your emotions and feelings, kasi baka makalimutan mo na ang mga defenses mo and again fall for the wrong man. Alam mo naman give and take ang relationship........sabi ko nga careful with your actions ha. And when worst comes to worst, nandito lang ako, wag lang sobrang grabe yung problem at baka di ko na kaya pa i mend...hehehe!
Well I'm glad naisip mo na rin na pumunta ng Bora. hehehe! we'll set the date this october ha. and please tell me beforehand para ma text ko ang sis ko about the reservation and mka buy ng ticket. okies? pero I'm wondering, matutuloy pa kaya yan even if may bf ka na? hehehe! ayaw ko mag chaperon ha....cge bye and ingat always........God Bless!

sad :(

"letters to angels"
Angel I'm sad kasi you're already seeing someone. I don't know if I'll get over it. Selos ako. hehehe! Pero remind lang kita ha. Be very careful, you cant afford to be wrong thrice. You told me, na when you choose your next bf, he will be it, your right guy. kaya don't give in too easily, try to look at his honesty and sincerity, and if he really love you, don't be blinded by happiness he can give at the moment, always look in the future. Alam ko your always attracted to "bad boys" pero sana this time you'll stick with what told me before, the qualities of a man you wanted to marry yung responsible, di mabarkada, di naninigarilyo, basta marami pa.....di chickboy? heheh!
Don't be too submissive "don't let mistakes happen twice". I know your a nice a girl and very special to me. So don't let me do grave things when I know you'll get hurt kaya pagisipan ng husto ha.
Bantay lang ako lage. sabi nga nila pigeon's always return to their home.

very down

"Letters to Angel"
Hi angel, alam mo sobraaaang down ako ngaun. this pm lang, mga after lunch lang. nagkita kasi kami ng classmate ng ex ko. yung kinikwento ko sa iyo. yung palagi ko ka chat. alam mo di nya sinasadya may nasabi sya sa akin. nung kami pa pala ng ex ko, may ini entertain sya na classmate din nila. sweet nga sila lagi. kaya nga ng nakita dw nya yung blog ng ex ko akala nya confused yung ex ko between the two of us tpos humihingi sya ng tawad sa akin for all fer mistakes.
parang ang sama pala ng feeling when you are being cheated no. ngayon ko lang to na feel, at a time pa na you wanted to be angry but it is not right because hindi na kayo. pero you really feel bad and angry about the past, your actions and regrets.
hay angel. it really feels bad.
good night and ingat!

masahe

"Letters to Angel"
Hi angel, good morning! ang sakit ng katawan ko ngaun, nagpamasahe kasi ako kagabi. pero masarap. hehe! Mura lang masahe namin dito 100ph lang tapos home service pa. tapos pwede rin magpa detox for only 300ph. maganda rin magpa detox parang ang gaan ng feeling for several days after. dati every month nagpapa detox ako. kaya lang ngaun, ewan, di ko na nagagawa. yung pagpa masahe nga last last month ko pa yata gnawa. ikaw di sana from time to time mag pamasahe ka para ma relax. gusto mo ako nalang magmasahe sau? joke. hehehe! cge angel ingat ka lagi. i'm always praying for you.

thank you

Letters to angel

Ei, thank you very much for replying. although medyo hurt pa rin ako kasi I can still feel your coldness, pero ok na rin kasi nalaman ko na you still consider me as your friend. I'll just take it one step at a time. Patience they say.... ;)
unproductive ako this wednesday, pero di naman totaly kasi nag linis naman ako ng sasakyan. sipag ko no. hehehe! di lang ako naka pag drawing kasi walang electricity kanina.
Nasira lang yung mood ko sa gabi kasi nagkasagutan kami ni nanay. Masakit kasi yung sinabi nya na binili ko yung pag-ibig ko before. That time naman all of my actions were done because of love. And all of it were part of my dream din for a better future. it just happen na di yun na appreciate ng taong pinag bigyan ko ng pagmamahal. It's ok na pagsabihan ako na dapat I should choose someone who is honest sa relationship, someone who will truly love me. cguro naman that time minahal din naman ako ng ex ko di ba. kahit na konti. kaya parang nakaka depress and nakaka baba ng pagkato ko when she told me na binili ko lang pagmamahal ko before. parang ang labas ko naman isang tao na masama ang ugali at napakahirap mahalin kaya yung gnagawa gumagastos ng malaki para lang mahalin ng iba.
good night angel and ingat ka always.

hubog

"Letters to Angel"
Hay angel, good morning "nahubog" ko last night. ilongo word yan for lasing, hehehe! May meeting kasi kami, remember di ba every end of the month may meeting kami. pero yung father ko ang nag head ng meeting last night. Nag speech pa kasi....hehe! Medyo nag lecture about honesty, yung grocery business kasi that was founded by my lolo but later given to my tita ay nag sara because of mismanagement. Naghihinayang din yung father ko kasi dugo at pawis din yung naging puhunan nila doon kasama na yung father ni jesse when it was starting. Over 50 years na ang business na yun and when my tita died yung cousin ko and his wife ang nagmamanage. Di nila nabantayan ng maayos ang business, ang daming ninakaw na mga stocks kaya ayun nalugi.
Ei mahirap daw work nyo ngayon sabi ni ana. nakaka pagod daw ng husto. nagusap kasi kami kagabi and she's telling me na napakahirap daw. I know sobrang nahihirapan ka talaga, ikaw pa na kailangan talaga ng sleep kasi nagiging masungit pag na stress. :) hehe! ingat ka lagi ha. at pag me problem text mo naman ako. ok?

pagod

"letters to angel"

Sobrang pagod ako today angel, pabalik balik kasi ako sa pier. may dumating kasi akong roof galing ng manila tpos ang ikli lang ng tulog ko kagabi kaya cguro ganun na lang yung pagod. after lunch antok na antok ako parang gusto kong matulog sa loob ng car, kaya lang di ba delikado yun? pagdating ko ng bahay after ko mag text sa iyo, (hoping na mag reply ka- :) ) e nakatulog na ako agad. pero d rin matagal kasi set ko naman yung alarm ng 1 hour. hehe! me work pa kasi na dapat taposin. ngayon nga nagsusulat ako sa iyo kasi nag rerender pa yung drawing ko. kumusta na nga pala? sweldo ngayon a. nag shopping ka na naman cguro. hehe! naka bili ka na ba ng ref? baka nama di ka na nakakasave kasi di ka nakaka pag grocery kasi walang mapaglalagyan. sana makapag text tau sa day off mo no para at least malaman ko kung na aapreciate mo pa rin yung presence ko like before and if kaya ko pa ba ibalik yung trust na nawala. :(
ingat ka uli ha. god bless sa work.

thank you

ei angel good afternoon! how are you? I hope ok ka lang ngayon. thanks sa pag text, sweldo nyo pala ngayon. I'm really glad that you texted me, it's nice to know na naaalala mo pa naman pala ako, although di ko alam kung ano yung meaning ng last part nun. Yung "Update na lang kita pag malaki na" hmmmnnn, napaisip na naman ako if what you mean is that your next text will be if malaki na yung naipon mo. Ang hirap talaga sa text no? Wala kasing emotions, yung mga text na mmisinterpret mo. Kaya ayun ang daming nagaaway. :) well, mangungumusta lang naman ako sayo-kung maganda lang mood mo. kung hindi naman di na rin kita pipilitin. k cge ingat ka lagi

its sunday

"letters to angel"

Sunday na naman, "lazy day".....pero not really :( I wanted to rest nga sana pero I have too many things to finish kaya eto hindi na ako nakapag pahinga. I had to draw so many detailed drawings para ipagawa sa mga tauhan ko tomorrow, parang kulang nga yung time. Na bore lang ako for some time kanina and I had to stop working kasi wala ng creativity na lumalabas sa utak ko. nag rest ng kaunti then nag attend ng mass after.
Yung sermon ng priest is about prayers, pano daw mag dasal. Actually some of what he said parang nasabi ko na sa story about prayers before. When we pray, we're actually talking to God, we can't just hear his answers because he speaks to us through our hearts. napaisip tuloy ako. ;) Meron syang binigay na guidelines of an effective prayer. Medyo di ko lang na remember lahat. hehe!
After ng mass napadaan naman ako ng public market and may nabebenta ng chicken inasal (favorite mo?hehe) kaya bumili ako ng ulam for dinner. masarap sya kasi "bisaya" yung manok, meaning nun local. ;) hangang dito na lang. :-*
ingat ka sa work angel!

forgiveness

"letters to angel"
Hi! good evening angel. I don't why I keep on writing these letters. I'm not even sure if mababasa mo to.
I would like to ask forgiveness to what I've said. But is it the right thing to do? Have I done something wrong? I know na wala akong masamang intention sa iyo. All of what I've said are sincere and true. They are my thoughts. And naisip ko lang na sana hindi ko sinabi pa. Just to save the friendship. Para di ka na lumayo pa. Para malaman ko na nandyan ka lang. there are things that are better kept forever. Cguro you would say na parang dishonesty naman yun or parang may hidden desire ako sa iyo. I can trade all of what I dream just to take hold on the friendship. alam ko naman na very slim ang chance na magustohan mo ako. kung bumaliktad lang ang mundo di ba.
Well I tried for several days not to think of you. I tried my tested ways of forgetting. My pros and cons reasoning, my meditation, I tried to think of you as someone with a very bad personality, very erratic mood, pero I don't know....when the morning comes, I would still consider you as my sunshine, somebody who makes my day right. someone who could listen to all my joys, my problems and my immaturities. at night before sleeping I would still think of your condition, you still make me want to care, I would still consider you as a friend and still I would still offer prayers.
I don't know if things will be better for us. I believe naman na if you really appreciate my presence, you wouldn't ignore me ng matagal. Isa lang masasabi ko, all the help that I gave you were not given because I'm courting you or because nagpapa pogi points ako. It's my nature to help the one's I love, the ones I care about, people who are important to my life at isa ka dun. Pero isa lang masasabi ko sa iyo, try to be compassionate sometimes. ;)
good night and ingat always.

nakakahiya

"letters to angel"
ei, cenxa di ko talaga na resist. Parang nakakahiya na talaga yung ginagawa ko no. Pero I can't just resist texting you, I know you have your reasons for ignoring it.
Sometimes sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na sana the care, attention and concern ay naging obligation na lang para i have the reason na mapagod or magalit or mag give-up. sana di ito naging feeling, a feeling which I can't resist, can't ignore, something my heart feel, something I can't stop. something I can't explain......sorry talaga.

don't we all 072707

"letters to angel" - 4
good evening angel, just got home from a meeting. Me bagong project na naman ako. maliit lang ble supply and installation of Asphalt Shingles roofing. Close to half a million lang ang worth. pero ok na rin. Kanina lang kami nag close but we haven't signed the contract pa. I have some measurements pa na dapat ifinalize kaya di muna kami nag pirmahan. Medyo mataas nga lang ang hiningi na commission ng brother ng owner. The owner is working abroad kasi kaya ang brother nya yung nag aasikaso. Hindi na naawa sa kapatid , I'll add din naman the amount of what he is asking to the cost of the materials e. kaya parang yung commission nya galing din sa kapatid nya. :)

Kumusta na nga pala sa bahay nyo? do you still feel depress there? sana text mo na ko no :( naka adjust ka na ba with your sleep? ang dami mo na cgurong dvd na pinanood no. :)
I want to share this story.....it's touching like the ones I've sent you before. sana nababasa mo.

DON'T WE ALL

I was parked in front of the mall wiping off my car. I had just come
from the car wash and was waiting for my wife to get out of work.
Coming my way from across the parking lot was what society would
consider a bum.
From the looks of him, he had no car, no home, no clean clothes, and no
money. There are times when you feel generous but there are other times
that you just don't want to be bothered. This was one of those "don't
want to be bothered times."
"I hope he doesn't ask me for any money," I thought.
He didn't.
He came and sat on the curb in front of the bus stop but he didn't look
like he could have enough money to even ride the bus.
After a few minutes he spoke.
"That's a very pretty car," he said.
He was ragged but he had an air of dignity around him. His scraggly
blond beard keep more than his face warm.
I said, "thanks," and continued wiping off my car.

He sat there quietly as I worked. The expected plea for money never
came.
As the silence between us widened something inside said, "ask him if
he needs any help." I was sure that he would say "yes" but I held true
to the inner voice.
"Do you need any help?" I asked.
He answered in three simple but profound words that I shall never forget.
We often look for wisdom in great men and women. We expect it from
those of higher learning and accomplishments.

I expected nothing but an
outstretched grimy hand. He spoke the three words that shook me.
"Don't we all?" he said.

I was feeling high and mighty, successful and important, above a bum
in the street, until those three words hit me like a twelve gauge
shotgun.
Don't we all?
I needed help. Maybe not for bus fare or a place to sleep, but I
needed help. I reached in my wallet and gave him not only enough for bus
fare, but enough to get a warm meal and shelter for the day. Those
three little words still ring true. No matter how much you have, no matter
how much you have accomplished, you need help too. No matter how little you
have, no matter how loaded you are with problems, even without money or
a place to sleep, you can give help.

Even if it's just a compliment, you can give that.
You never know when you may see someone that appears to have it all.
They are waiting on you to give them what they don't have. A different
perspective on life, a glimpse at something beautiful, a respite from
daily chaos, that only you through a torn world can see.
Maybe the man was just a homeless stranger wandering the streets. Maybe
he was more than that.

Maybe he was sent by a power that is great and
wise, to minister to a soul too comfortable in themselves.

Maybe God looked down, called an Angel, dressed him like a bum, then said, "go minister to that man cleaning the car, that man needs help."
Don't we all?

good night angel at ingat pa rin mamaya ha.

good morning

"letters to angel" -3

Good morning angel
I hope your ok. Hirap ng work no. hay ako, medyo d naman nakkapag work kagabi. I was supposed to finish something, mga designs to the project I was telling you before. Yung tinulongan kami ng mga students for the documentation. well, their work gave me a headache. I can't comprehend the drawings. it really gave me a hard time cuz the drawings doesn't conform with each other. the dimension for it are not even complete and wasn't drawn into scale. so nahirapan ako mag drawing. It's easier kasi if naka scale sya. You can just measure it kahit na walang nakalagay na dimension. siguro I'll work on it later naman. yan kung hindi na masakit ulo ko.
ingat ka sa pag uwi mamaya ha. diretso sa bahay, wala munang date. remember yung career. hehehe! joke! regards kay tita, sana nasarapan sya sa pinadala ko. God bless!

songs

"letters to angel" -2
Hi angel, gabi na and i know pasok ka na naman sa office later . ang hirap daw ng work nyo ngaun kasi masakit daw sa ulo. i'll pray na lang that God will always make you safe. tapos good health and blessings na naman, - yung palaging hiling ko :) . medyo na tempt ako na mag text kaya lang naisip ko na baka naman galit ka pa rin kaya sabi ko wag na lang muna. :( nakita ko naman kasi yung cp ko and kukumustahin sana kita. ang hirap. hehehe!
cguro napakinggan mo na ang mga cd's. nagandahan ka ba sa alternative? I like the songs sa last part. yung "wrong impression", "fools like me" and "even angels fall". Alam ko yung kinakanta mo always.....yung "listen". hehehe! nandyan yung lyrics sa likod ng cover. :) sana kung nagpadala ka ng list para naman yung gusto mo talaga yung na burn ko. next time na lang cguro. tapos yung book kwento mo na lang if ever na magkita tayo. kelan kaya yun 10 years later? joke.

medyo less ang activity ko today. tinatamad ako ng umaga so I did nothing. hehe! actually I'm working on some designs when one of my friends logged in sa ym. kaya nag chat kami. she's very depress because of some events in her life. last april her sister died pla of cancer and kanina lang hinatid nya sa airport yung nephew nya na inalagaan nya for 5 years. very sad talaga sya. she cried pa nga kanina habang naguusap kami kasi na alala naman nya yung sister nya. very close kasi sila, magkasunod kasi yung age. one year lang daw binuhay nya after she was diagnosed. and pwede mapadala sa tv yung story kasi very romantic yung love story nya. tragic lang nga ang ending. she had a boyfriend for 8 years and this january kinasal sila months before her death. yun lang daw yung pinaka hiling nya. kung ako, ganyan din gagwin ko. kahit masakit, il love her until her last breath. ewan ko alin ang mas masakit, yung bago palang kayo na parang bitin pa at you still want to spend some more time with your love one, or yung matagal na kayo wherein you already build a bond with each other? ewan....hehehe! cguro parehas masakit. :) after namin mag chat pumunta naman ako ng bank, kasi nag text yung supplier ko sa manila that they will ship my roofing materials this week kaya nag rush naman ako, medyo muntik na akong ma saradohan ng bank kaya mabilis na naman patakbo ko ng car. bakit kasi di cla nag inform kaagad e. sana kahapon nag deposit na ako para naka save sa gas. sabi ko kasi 2x a week nlang ako mag ddrive ng malayo, 500 ph din naman yung gass everytime umaalis ako. e pag almost everyday aalis ako magkano na yun. magasto. nakaka asar.
ei always remember yung bilin ko. try to remember the name of the taxi you're riding tpos yung plate and body number. ingat lagi. Good night and God bless.

prayer (72607)

"letter to angel" - 1
good morning.
i know you went to church yesterday. i hope you prayed for me like what you've done before. pray for my good health and blessings please. :) even though were not texting I HOPE you still prayed for me.
may story ako sa iyo about prayers..

there was this man na bed ridden, parang naghihintay na lang ng death nya. one day tumawag yung anak nya sa isang pastor/priest. sabi nya puntahan daw ang father nya para ma bless kasi parang mamamatay na. so pumunta yung priest para nga mag alay ng prayers. naupo yung pari sa tabi ng dying man at told the man na dapat manalangin xa kay God. sabi ng maysakit, father all my life I never knew God. I was too busy with life, lahat na lang sa akin work at pera. I don't even go to church. And isa pa father I don't know how to pray, wala akong alam na prayer. hindi ko rin alam kung ano yung ipapanalangin ko.
Sabi ng priest sa kanya, napakadali lang manalangin, pag alis ko dito, i would leave the chair beside you. try to imagine that jesus is sitting beside you, talk to him like a normal person, magkwento ka sa kanya. sabihin mo yung mga problems mo, yung mga nagawa mo sa buhay. talk to him like talking to one of your friends. gawin mo yan araw araw habang buhay ka pa.
so umalis ang pari, several weeks pass tinawagan nya yung anak ng lalaki kasi parang ang tagal na and wala pa syang nabalitan kung ano na ang nangyari.
sabi nya father, namatay na yung father ko. alam mo I can't believe na umabot sya ng ganito katagal, ang pinagtataka ko lang everyday parang may kinakausap sya lagi. well this morning we found him dead, his head was over the chair and you can see that happy face he has. parang natutulog lang sya father. sabi ng pari, he is happy because he died on the lap of Jesus.

well yesterday wasn't that nice for me. I have this pain on my left feet which i think would let me suffer for several days. But being naughty again I drank beer together with some people who are re-painting my pickup truck. yung nabanga ko last year. pinaayos ko kasi. after that yung isang sasakyan na naman.

ei sorry nga pala for that long text which made you doubt my friendship. I was just being honest. although some things are better kept until the right time for it to be revealed. hindi yan hidden intention, di mo lang ma iintindihan. well di naman sana yun yung purpose ko that day, I just want you to listen, kasi very down nga ako and depressed pero it steered its way towards it. pero ok na rin yun. cge till next time.